where lies are truths.

2007-12-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

moved.

shoee.wordpress.com

2007-09-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

had to set up a blog for one of my design mod (nm2208)
check it out n comment on my designs to help me improve k?:)
the blog: shumin-nm2208.blogspot.com

2007-09-04T12:21:00.000+08:00

oops i havent been updatin regularly again :X
i kinda regret not bloggin abt stuff that happened esp those happy ones. it seems, at least to me that happy memories are harder to keep track than sad ones.
hmm i'm 4th week into the sem n i'm feeling the stress and the pressure. workload for this sem is much heavier than the past 2 sems..crazy stacks of readings, a design module (nm2208) that requires 10 hrs of preparatory work, french 2 n blah o btw i have a french test tomolo sigh
n my 3 tuition kids are underperformin which kinda saddens me. i wonder if i have what it takes to b a good tutor sigh
with him, things have been going up n down..i feel helpless.
i hope i can survive thru this sem in one piece :X

2007-08-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

My head is swarmed with a thousand thoughts
But somehow they cant materialize into words
I wonder if it has got to do with the alcohol
Or maybe i'm subconciously burying those thoughts
Just so they would not become reality

2007-07-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

okie this is my first pic with braces on..don't you think that i look like a kid? n i think i have the friendly look with the braces on..i've been gettin random smiles from strangers and there was this time when i was out with phoebe..out of the blue an uncle called me xiao mei damn loudly ..it was as though he knows me damn well.."-_- aniwae this was taken at cara's bday party..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE :) love ya!
our trip to the zoo on 230607. jimmy took pic of almost all the animals in the zoo until his cam batt went flat haha..but it was a great day with plenty of animals and lovely company :)
love you my hold hand boy :)

2007-07-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm think it's abt time I dust the cobwebs off my blog :P
Recently I just lacked the inspiration to blog about anything. Perhaps I'm just plain lazy haha but I think it's much easier to write when i'm feeling upset. There's something about sadness that makes the words flow more easily. Dont you think?
Wells i've been okie :)..hmm most of the time.
There's just one thing tt's kinda naggin me and I dont quite noe how to go about dealing with it. Because it's sumthin that needs 2 person's effort. A friendship. Sigh.
Anyways i've stopped workin for a week already n i'm enjoyin every min of my rottin time rite now. Haha:P
N ya i've straighten my hair..not super straight like the ah lians kind. Just wanted to straighten out my perm n make it neater.
k i'm off to play games now. Ciao!

2007-06-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

i decided to blog since i've got nothin to do while waitin for my show- dirty dancin to start..
todae i spent the day at home..rottin n sleepin most of the time :p durin the weekdays i hardly haf time to like rot..so the weekends have become precious..for me to do wadeva i want, to just haf some alone time..
aniwae..yups i've started work at hsbc premier branch(located near the swensen in town) abt 2 weeks ago..let's just say that work made me depressed:( ..the people are nice but it's just that it gets a little lonely with no one to talk to cos i'm like the only temp there n the rest of the people are really busy n much older than me..n at times i had to lunch alone..but things are improving :) cos i got to noe this girl at another department n she's arnd my age..so yea! n luckily i haf frens who so nice as to lunch with me!
show's startin! be back soon :)

2007-05-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

i wanted to type a whole damn essay abt wad i'm feelin rite now
but wad's the point really
so all i have to say is that
i'm frustrated
and there's nothin i can do abt it
:(

2007-05-12T03:57:00.000+08:00

some more pics that we took on the day car,ys n wq treated me to a seafood dinner! i love the sri lankan crab esp..YUMMY! n i had my all-time favourite oreo cheesecake too :)

went out with darlin vic n joyce to shop arnd n vic tied my hair for me while waitin for jimmy n tecko to come meet us. thought it was quite nice but i wish my hair was like longer n less layered sigh..ya it's abt time to go cut my hair..gettin kinda messsssy. that nite jimmy n tecko went to the airport with me. went there to send my aunt off. she'll be workin in shanghai for a year..hmm i'll miss her :(

pulau ubin-ed with my babes, jimmy n tecko. hmm felt a little stressed up cos everyone knew how to cycle properly except me. i was like quite clumsy n slow..felt bad abt holdin everyone up at some parts of the journey. but i'm proud of myself in the sense that my cyclin skills has improved quite a bit..at least i need not get off my bike to make a turn haha :)

our seafood lunch n unglam pics :p

on the way back. we were all ston-ing away. it was tiring at least for me:p but it was pretty enjoyable la haha. went to watch spiderman 3 with jimmy after tt. thought that the show was alrite only..not really sucha big deal.

n ya! i had like at least 7 bruises on my legs. i have no idea how did i bang myself to such an extent while cycling. OUCH. damn ugly rite :( n i have ugly tan lines now. AH!

* life these days has been pretty alrite for me :) but sometimes it seems a little unreal..but no matter what..i'm thankful that my relationship with my family esp with my parents has improved quite a bit..i'm thankful for the frens who are consistently there for me, supportin me, encouragin me whenever i'm down n always showerin much care n love on me n last but not least..i'm thankful that i've found you :)

2007-05-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

it has been more than a mth since i've updated..time to dust the cobwebs off my blog haha..so..finally it's the end of exams ..not really happie or wad..like wad I told yiling..mayb the start n end of exams have become part n parcel of our lives that they dun affect us tt much anymore or perhaps the reality that exams has ended hasnt sunk into us yet haha..aniwae for this hols i hope i can go back to hsbc to work, find time to meet up and spend time with my frens, go SHOPPING, n most imptly have good rotting sessions haha:p 3 mths of break is quite a long time ya..amazing rite!haha.. ya aniwae i've uploaded quite a number of pics of the stuff that took placed durin this one mth or so..enjoy! :) oya CARA i'm still waitin for u to send me the pics!:p
k I think i'll go sleep ready..oya tomolo i'm goin shoppin! Yay!
kh's bdae..went dxo to drink n den headed down to zouk!simply love to camwhore when i club haha:p
my present from my favourite pple!a seafood treat/ my birthday cake from darlin vic n babe / lovely indian cuisinepretty roses that were delivered to my hse in the morning on my bdae a pleasant surprise:)thanks for all the bdae smses pple!:) it was nice that my frens remembered my bdae..i shld really make an attempt to remember everyone's bdae dates..i'm really forgetful:X
happy 2nd mth!

2007-03-26T14:30:00.001+08:00

oops..I see that I havent been updating much :X
been kinda busy..n also so much has happened that I dunno where to start n go abt blogging abt them.
but no worries..things have been goin fine for me.
n for now..
je ne veux rien mais vous. :)

2007-03-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

i just like uploaded 40 photos to photobucket..haha man i think i just love takin pics la:p.040307.had family lunch at this chinese restaurant at hotel inter-continental. it was an extremely satisfyin lunch i must say Y U M Y U M Y U M! in the 1st pic tt i took..the wooden bucket looks damn ordinary rite..but in it there are losta stuff like prawns, scallops, sharks' fin, abalone, duck n veg..damn cool la n damn delicious! haha me n my auntie/ my siblings :) / me n my bro (he dun look like a 33 year old rite haha)
unglam pic of my bro / my parents n auntie

.030407.went studyin at bukit merah lib with alvin n in the nite went clubbin with my babes! we left dxo at like 10 plus cos we were bored by the event..headed down to mos..drank very little so cldnt quite get high n my stomach felt weird..so me n vic left earlier..so sorrie joyce tt we left early :X we'll party harder the next time we go yea? :)i was slackin in the lib..just restin :p / thought background effect was quite nice me n vic / us! / me n joyce

me n pon / us!

.010307.
great company, great drinks n losta unglam pics (these are only part of those tt i took tt nite hahah!) hmmm think i shant elaborate on the later part of the nite..but at the end of the day..everythin ended well :)

i'm gona take a nap for now..n mayb go runnin later :P

2007-03-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

So this is how it feels like to be out of control.
So this is how it feels like to reach a breaking point.
So this is how it feels like being loved and cared for.
So this is how it feels like.

A nite of madness n love of all kinds :)

2007-02-26T18:43:00.000+08:00

i've finally gotten down to uploadin the pics. these are only part of the pics that i've uploaded O_o hahah. oya south asia test is finally over :)
the prawns i so enjoy durin the steamboat reunion dinner at M hotel..i had 7 prawns tt nite la Y U M/ me n darling chloe!/ me mel n bernice durin our nm lect!
tecko n the snake which he was so in love with :P
reunion dinner with my babes at ys's place..oya cara! i can see your ****** too hahaha:P us! i love the first shot! (vday)

us acting cute..hahah!

i love my alcohol!

me n DARLING vic in zouk toilet..n it was the nite where someone puked on my pretty dress..hate tt person la! :( / my new fringe n new hair colour. i think my hair colour isnt tt obvious in the pic..it's quite a dark colour but under light it is a little reddish..i was so worried that it's an auntie colour..but sJ assured that it looks fine :) n oya i sat at the salon for 4 hours doin my hair..butt pain :Prite now i'm like starvin..i wonder wad's takin my sis so long to buy my dinner..den after tt i've gota revise my french..ah!:( cant wait for sat though..den can party again with my hotties!:)i realise i've been smiling alot these days :)

2007-02-20T18:34:00.000+08:00

things i wana w h i n e abt!
my south asia reading are like damn alot
i'm stress abt tuition tomolo
my cramps r killin me so much so that i havent eaten anythin todae except for buns n milo
i hate my fringe
:(
things that made me s m i l e!
spottin someone in the crowd
talkin things thru
hangin out with my siblings
spontaneous outings
dinner n seein bestie
clubbin tomolo
lookin good in the dress i bought for new year hahah :P
oya pics from ydae nite! these r sent to me by vic n mel..havent had time to upload those from my hp oops :P
emo shot of me n vic at the merlion place. love this shot. n ya tt's the fcuk top i bought. hmmm think the next time i dun wana wear it ready..damn low n it's lao sai colour hah

me n jimmy(my fringe sucks la..cant wait for sat den can do my hair :p)/plus vic(hmm i realise got no pics of tecko..where is tecko)

bestie :)

the crescent pple!

2007-02-17T11:55:00.000+08:00

u r rite..mayb it's about time that I stop playin with f i r e.

Oops I havent really been updating huh :X been reall busy the entire week actually..so busy that I feel that I got no time to breathe n am kinda sleep deprived..but wells I survived the week..not bad at all :) haha. ya been busy with project which me n mel finished our part within like 1 hr plus..so proud of ourselves can:) n with tuition stuff..it's my first tuition assignment..teachin a sec 1 and sec 4 girl..i'm kinda worried abt the sec 4 girl cos the stuff that she is taught has some a lvl stuff..n I cant like remember much abt a lvl stuff..so A H H H H! but we'll see how it goes n i'll try my best la :P vday this year was spent givin tuition again..n villa bali plus chinatown plus the pavement outside scarlet hotel with DARLING vic, tecko n jimmy..n ya we were like doing some serious cam-whorin the whole nite..haha will post them up once jimmy sends it to me..but man it was a great nite with great company n not forgettin great drinks! a toast to frenship! Tt nite we hung out till abt 3 am..so thurs I survived the day on 4 hrs of sleep n had to study for nm test..i'm good rite hahah..ydae nite was babel which was actually not bad except I wish tt the story progress cld go a little faster and den it was supper at chinatown..which unfortunately I didnt quite get to satisfy my bah ku teh cravings :P..the crowd at chinatown was not bad..n the things they were sellin were damn cheap..amazin la..
n ya i'm kinda happy n sad at the same time now tt it's term-break..happy cos there will b mahjong sessions with my tutorial mates from bsp (I hope it's still on:X) n some catchin up to do like with bestie! Unhappy cos gota mug..i've got 2 tests when sch reopens how exciting rite..k now i'm off to get some studying done before headin to my 2nd aunt's place for my 2nd reunion dinner..more food! Y U M :) n ya i'll get down to postin all the pics soon! :P last but not least happy chinese new year pple!

2007-02-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

somehow i cant help but feel sad.

2007-02-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

took some pics todae but i'm kinda lazy to upload them..mayb i'll upload them tog with the pics tt i'll take tomolo durin reunion dinner..yes u didnt read wrongly..i'm havin reunion dinner tomolo at M hotel..kinda early rite but it's cos on the actual day itself we'll b havin another reunion dinner at my 2nd aunt's place so ya..i hope the food will b good:P aniwae i'm kinda glad tt the week's comin to an end :) need some proper rest..havent been sleepin enuff for the past few days O_o so for tonite i've decided not to do any work n i'll try to sleep a little earlier. n i wana club next next wed..hear tt vic? :P hahah..oya french test sucked big time!!
this post is kinda random ah? hahah

2007-02-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

i'm like feelin hungry the entire day cos i cant eat properly. sore throat aint gettin beta n i have losta ulcers..on my tongue n arnd my mouth. swallowin has become a painful activity. sucks :(

if only there were always solutions to problems
if only there were lesser grey areas in life
if only I could make sense of everythin around me
perhaps there will b a chance that i'll be able to find tt sense of peace i used to have
perhaps then I would be a happier person
perhaps..

2007-02-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

i'm upset tt i'm sick :( down with a fever, sore throat and a very bad headache. it's so painful that i feel like bangin my head against the wall seriously :p went to sch todae thinkin tt i cld pull thru the day since i took some painkillers but cldnt tahan cos the medicine didnt seem to work n my head felt like it was gona explode so left lect half way so tt my dad cld send me to the doc. aniwae goin out with vic tomolo..i hope some retail therapy will cheer me up :) n oya my parents r leavin for KL tomolo..tt means lesser restrictions haha:P

2007-01-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

wad an unusual monday i must say..hmmm the first thing tt happened was that i saw a naked ass of this girl O_o it was unintentional n i'm straight :\ after french class me n tiyi went to the toilet..while in the toilet i was like pushin the cubicle doors with my finger to check if they were really occupied..den guess wad..i pushed one of the doors n there i saw this girl with her ass facin me..gosh i wanted to die seriously. i think she forgot to lock the door or sumthin..after openin the door i hurry up run away :x i got no face to face the girl la..den karma..i was on my way to meet the girls for lunch when the wind blew up my dress..wth seriously "-__- oya i ran just now! *beams* .....okie la i stopped half way cos i wanted to puke:p

2007-01-28T14:36:00.000+08:00

taggie repliestecko: c'est cool! u can speak french? haha one more person to practice speakin french with..bien!:) hahah vidz: hahah let's go for a drink next week? :)mel: i feel so bad tt i pangseh u again :X sorry ah..my treat next time k! hahainn: hahah eh how u find my blog? haha man cant wait to haf lunch with u girls on monday!! :) let's take loads of pics ya! aha
hmmm havent been spendin much lately except to buy some essentials like my damn chio nail file which is like gold in colour..haha i realise i haf quite a number of gold stuff..like my gold notebook..golden havaianas haha n ya bought a dress from toss for cny..love the dress :)..ya sat was supposed to go hang out at the beach but the damn weather is like ARGH. ended up havin lunch at harbourfront n window shoppin at cityhall..window shoppin is like how torturous can :( but i must really save la..so no more big time shoppin..aniwae sch's gona get a bit more busy with all the projects commencin soon, tut and loads n loads of readings..sigh. oya ydae nite was quite eventful i bumped into "it" at labrador park..it was a black figure n if i didnt see wrongly it was wearin a helmet..looks like a soldier..all i can say is that i'm suay n my luck is low :x was a bit stunned..n i decided to sleep with the nights on..wasnt sucha good sleep with the lights on :/
pics that were taken at ps cafe near dempsey road..go check out the place..it's quite nice!

the table decor/ view of from the outdoor area(looks like a place where u can sight fairies n pixies rite haha:P)/ the okie-tastin carrot cake

the indoor view taken from the outdoor/ outdoor

wine selection/ the row of sinful indulgences at the counter(oya they dun provide a dessert menu..u hafta walk all the way to the counter to select ur dessert..kinda troublesome leh:x)

time for some french for now n later to check out the chinchillas that my sis-in-law bought haha..au revoir!

2007-01-24T13:43:00.000+08:00

emotional fatigue.take me to my safe haven.

2007-01-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

.a little update abt my weekend.sat nite went for v-bash at st james with vic, joyce, jimmy, tecko, edwin and kelvin. it was fun!:) besides the fact that the music became horrible towards the later part of the party. n ya vic puked (as usual hahaha!) think it's cos like she was physically tired n plus she drank too fast mayb(?)..so tt's y :X..met vidz there too! man it has been ages since i last saw u! gettin prettier ah someone *wink* haha..hmm we left the place pretty early..oya vic stayed over at my place..n it's quite amazin that she slept damn soundly the moment her head touched the mattress haha..n oya i didnt noe i took so many pics usin vic n my phone..these pics tt i've uploaded here are just a portion of those tt i took hahahaon sunday nite went out with fren to one rochester n den headed down to liquid kitchen. the outdoor area of one rocherter is not bad though the music they played didnt quite like fit the whole atmosphere. n like i cant believe that manu lost la!! o wells..n todae my first nm2102 tut was hmmm borin? mabel's in my tut class coincidentally so at least i noe one person in my class but the rest of the pple there dun look like my type of pple n there were no cute guys :X hmm hopefully it will get beta as the weeks go by. french was A H H H! still pretty lost n i needa practice speakin french seriously. k off to revise my french for now.. au revoir!
toilet shots :p

me n vic at yoshi/we took the pic while vic was puking at the basin:p/candid shot!

:)

edwin&kelvin/jimmy

the acrobats. was damn scared that they'll drop down n hit me haha

outdoor area of one rochester.

the indoor area but too bad it's kinda blur here..think my hand shook while takin this shot.
sometimes words can only do this much.

2007-01-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

haha i was damn proud of myself on thurs can cos i resisted the temptation to buy stuff..saw this lovely clutch at miss selfridge n this pair of earrings from island shop..they were both goin at half price can! GOSH!but i think i shld stop being such a spendthrift seriously..so pple if u see me spendin unnecessarily pls stop me! :p ya before cara came to meet us..went to do some readings at lido tcc with ys..sippin peach melba n eatin chicken wings in a cold weather was like how nice la..haha..den had dinner at food republic..had sinful indulgences like fried carrot cake, hokkien mee, popiah and mua ji yummy! den todae i met up with yiling for lunch..while on the way to meet her i bumped into sj so we all ate at gecko n spent 1 hrs plus discussin girly stuff..the stuff we talked abt was hmmm..hahaha! after tt went to city hall to meet stella. i think we r gettin old like seriously..walked arnd for a while n we got tired so we had an early dinner at swensen..later we went to do our nails..now my nails are a nice shade of pink! headed to town for tua huay n starbucks followed by us roaming aimlessly in town till abt 12am..i love walks seriously..i think they r kinda therapeutic..haha..oya! i bought my gold havaianas like finally!! rememeber i said that there was this num guy who wanted to sell it to me privately? yea till now he hasnt like got back to me..aniwae went to the branch at pic hse..stella bought the pair of beatles n the gold one too..den i asked stella to ask the num guy if he knew tt num guy who wanted to do a private sale with me..den me n tt guy began like gossipin abt tt stupid num guy..haha quite funnie..i think tt stupid num guy bluffed me abt the pair which i reserved was sold off accidentally..asshole la!A R G H. oya my phone died on me todae..i feel so disconnected n weird w/o my phone :( n i realised that this entry sounds kinda bimbotic..but o wells :p aniwae pic time!
ys doin her readings "seriously"/an unsuccessful attempt of me tryin to act serious :p
at work!
yum yum.

stella! (the last pic i took b4 my phone died on me)

my gold havainas! :)

2007-01-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm..havent been bloggin lately cos been feeling kinda lazy n sleepy ahaha:p..so here's a quick update n summary of this few days. haha. .120107.it was lunch at munchie monkeys and night at the museum at vivo with the babes :) the movie wasnt as hilarious as i thought it wld be..130107.had wanted to head to sentosa but the weather wasnt that great so in the end me n cara met for subway in town. n oya we spotted 2 hotties! gosh they are really yummy n i even dreamt of one of them..haha:p den it was hot chocolate at the turquoise room with da fren..quite a nice place to just chill out n drink i must say..i think my photos dun do justice to the place seriously :p

.140107.met up with bestie in town for lunch n to buy some stuff..thanks for the chocolates ya? i'm abt to finish them ready :p n ya i love the ice cream at anderson's seriously! after that met up with lucas for a while to talk n chill. headed to my aunt's place after tt for dinner..150107.had my first french lesson. i was pretty lost actually cos the tb has no english translations at all. sucks. n i had problems with the pronunciations..AH!.. after sch watched pan's labyrinth with pengyang. it's in spanish..quite a good show..shld go catch it! k la think i'll go do some readings for now..ciao!
i wish that the weariness n the emptiness i've been feelin these days will go away soon. :(

2007-01-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

isnt a certain level of openness between 2 persons impt in order to maintain a frenship or relationship of any sort? sigh.

2007-01-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

The first day of sch wasnt too bad :). Initially I was pretty scared that the pple in my french class wont b nice n I wont make any frens there..but I made one fren and peng yang is also in my class..haha so I guess it isnt tt bad afterall..kinda lookin forward to be able to speak in french haha..south asia was borin..i nearly died there..mayb cos it has been a while since I sat thru a 1 hr 45 min of lect..after sch went out with sj..had a super late lunch at new york new york..the buffalo wings were spicy but quite shiok :p n we certainly had fun with the candy floss machine..oya yday nite I was damn pissed off..cos I made a reservation for the gold havaianas den guess wad they accidentally sold it off so like no more stock..KENA SAI can..but later I received a sms from this num guy who has a pair which he wana sell off so I guess i'll b getting it from him..YEA!
Lunch todae with kev..haha I was freakin amused cos a lot of guys were checkin him out cos he was in uniform shoppin arnd in city link n suntec..hahah
N now i'm upset n in pain:( my thing just came..unexpectedly..damn

2007-01-07T13:24:00.000+08:00

.040107.met up with phoebe for dinner and to chill out. at spinelli we ordered honey chamomile n the ivory n ebony cheesecake which was YUMMY! talked alot n we sure took losta pics..hahaha..thanks for the nite babe! :) oya tt nite i cldnt get to sleep the entire nite cos my throat kept givin me problems n i had indigestion..i think it must have been the chicken rice we had..too oily..ya so the next day didnt meet up with joyce n vic cos i was seriously deprived of sleep n my stomach felt weird..so sorrie k? :x

.060107.it was like a family day at sentosa! actually my aunt booked 2 room at rasa sentosa to celebrate chloe's bdae..so nice rite..oya guess wad! i touched, carried n took pic with an albino python! i didnt noe i was tt brave haha! its texture was smooth n cooling to touch..n it was damn heavy 15 kg n 2m long. yea quite cool rite..at nite we celebrated chloe's bdae. my parents n aunt left sentosa den my bro drove us to jewel box. i went there to shit hahah! nice toilet quite conducive :p after tt went out with fren to chill out at the hill n conquered the whole of siloso beach n part of palawan..not bad not bad haha! oya n one more thing..i simply love hotel beds! seriously! damn comfortable n sleep inducin haha :p so now i'm back home n gettin a little depressed cos sch starts tomolo n i feel so unprepared for sch..i'm quite scared that the pple in my french group are not nice sigh n wad's worse is tt tt's my first lect some more at 10 am..so early..u tell me how to wake up?!?!!! HELP!!

2007-01-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

now that i'm feelin beta after my second trip to the doc with kev accompanyin me(thanks!)..am coughin lesser but my voice still sucks n throat is still a little painful when i swallow stuff.. i've decided to do some updating. 31/12/06.

nice wq treated us to starbucks :)..we slacked there till ys n alvin came over to meet us.
after tt it was steamyboat time!! cara came late (tsk tsk :p)..all of them were pretty lousy cos they ate so little n den they were full ready :p..but the food was not bad just that mayb a little ex cos each of us paid like almost 50 for the meal..i think next time when my family decides to go there for steamboat again, i'll happily tag along so tt i wont needa pay :p after tt we headed to tanjong rhu..wanted to haf some drinks at cosy bay but it was packed..so we crossed the bridge n ended up at this little bar where the guys ordered a dispenser of tiger beer cos it was more economical den buyin individual drinks..but corona tastes much beta still! we thought we wld be able to see the fireworks display but in the end it was blocked by the condos. so we had to make do with sparklers..so sad rite..oya guess how i got the stick of sparkler..it was all thanks to ys..she shouted that she wanted a stick of sparkler n den she went to hide behind the rest of us..the guy who had the sparklers turned arnd n saw me..thinkin tt it was me who shouted he gave the sparkler to me..haha..so malu la.."-__- candid shots. somehow i always haf unglam pics of pple arnd me hahah! haha i really didnt noe we took so many pics..esp with vic..haha gosh we are such camwhores seriously..haha :p alvin decided to send us home when vic started puking..she puked twice..cos she kept stealin my beer to drink..beer stealer:p..so tt's vic for u sleepin on my shoulder.

i was leanin on cara in the car..so i decided to take more pics!..we look so happy!..haha must be the alcohol. the night ended with me puttin vic to bed n stayin up to talk to my sis till abt 5am. i was quite surprised that i made losta sense when talkin to my sis considerin that i was high from beer ready haha..n ya though the company for the nite is somewhat mixed, it was good company! haha. happy belated new year everyone! :) hmmm i wonder what 2007 will b like for me..

2007-01-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

tried to get to sleep for abt 1 hr plus..but it was all in vain. cannot stop coughin n i think i also caught a cold. man this sucks. i wish i knew how to drive for this time only so that i can drive myself to a doc n get drowsy medicine n haf a good nite rest n sleep. :(

2007-01-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

was supposed to post this up yday..oops :p
Since I'm feeling kinda bored rite now..i thought I must as well do some reflections for the year 2006 since it's endin in a couple of hours time. This year it has been kinda different from the rest of the years. For the first half of the year..i was workin at hsbc..tt was where I experienced my first dose of office politics..of course they didnt quite involve me since I think and I believe that I was pretty harmless and well-liked..:p..but it's scary how there's like so much hypocrisy n backstabbin, it's pretty easy to lose urself in the gain of favour n power. Hmm I met nice pple there and it was the first time in years that I spoke loads of mandarin haha..i was most cheena-pok durin my primary sch days..haha. during the period when I left hsbc n before the start of sch. I was pretty much rottin, doin nothing with my babes..though now I cant exactly remember wad we did, I noe I really miss those times. Den it was the start of uni life at nus..initially I wasnt tt happy I guess..cos I didnt quite want to go fass. But it didnt turn out too bad. Haha at least I made frens n some mods tt I took were pretty enjoyable. N aniwae I think i'm actually more of an arts person than a sci person. Haha. My results were alrite. But I guess I cld have done beta..so for the next sem I'll chiong a bit more..haha:p
This year I also haf losta "first"..permed my hair for the first time in my life..havin to pay half of my hp bill for the first time..only started like youtubin late this year..first time I fear getting old(I'm hitting 20 next year HELP!), I started lomographing, the first time I wasnt dependent on my sleeping pills to sleep durin my exam period, first time I chiong to library almost everyday or 2 weeks to study for exams haha too many..lazy to think..:p
N my relationship with my family is improving..there are now lesser quarrels n unhappiness in the household..n I really want it to continue tt way..guess maintainin relationships with people whom u see everyday n live with which increases the possibility of friction is pretty difficult in some sense..but they are blood ties..i'm determined.
N I'm also grateful for the group of frens both old n new haha. They are a blessing in my life seriously..there are so many times that I've stumbled n fell but they have always been there to cushion my falls n gave me a helping hand and a sympathetic ear. Wad more can I ask for seriously..
For my love department..haha still kosong la. :p Hahah I guess I like the way things are cos i realized I hate havin to worry abt someone else n the uncertainty that love brings about..and upon seein so many breakups n broken hearts arnd me..i guess I wont commit unless I'm really sure? But den again who noes..:p

haha tt's all for now..will blog again abt NYE soon ya..n i'm losin my voice :(

2006-12-30T17:00:00.000+08:00

damn my throat is not gettin any beta. i'm still coughin like there's no tomolo, my phlegm is disgustingly green and thick, my voice is like monotonous and low. o wells.
aniwae yday..went for movie with the birthday girl yiling!:) the movie was okie but it was a little too long. yups..after that went over to my bro's place for chloe's bdae celebration..came home at arnd 12 plus. todae i decided to stay at home n rest..really hope i can recover by tomolo. sigh.

2006-12-29T01:50:00.000+08:00

i guess everythin is kinda cleared.
i'll just believe that i read too much into things and think too much on my part.
at least now i'm confused no more.

2006-12-28T15:01:00.000+08:00

it sucks that tt i'm not able to log into msn..i feel so disconnected:p..aniwae was supposed to go out this 2 days..but fell sick unexpectedly..so i'm like home sleepin most of the time, readin n coughin my lungs out..hmm it sucks that my parents are not in sg.., no dad to send me to the doc but luckily cara popped over n accompanied me to the doc(thanks!), the house is like a little too quiet, no home cook meals since i dunno how to cook n my sis hafta work..sigh i feel so untaken care of :(

*edit
i can finally log into msn! yea! :)

2006-12-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

Todae I got a little depressed..seems like love has become unpredictable these days. It seems harder to believe in true love these days when u see more people falling out of love than falling in love.
I so needa hibernate..i'm lackin of proper rest n sleep.

2006-12-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

christmas eve was first spent at my aunt's place..the food tt were prepared were good! yummy-licious! :) after that got home n called ys..n within 20 mins i was in alvin's car to go to villa bali. so this was how i spent christmas..laughin, amused by ys's seh-ness, pushin our alcohol limits, takin pictures, talked a bit of nonsense haha! got home nearin 2am.. our drinks/ ys who seh-ed w/o finishin her corona :x
a pretty high alvin haha:p
ys & alvin/ the 2 who finished up a bottle of wine n 2 coronas haha!
me n ys!

my self shots. just thought i looked a bit too happy haha hmm i'm really surprised to receive the present from you. maybe goodbyes arent really goodbyes anymore?

2006-12-24T16:15:00.000+08:00

yesterdae afternoon was spent writing christmas cards which till now i havent quite finish yet..oops..haha guess u guys will receive the card after christmas..but beta late than never rite? :p at nite..went to meet mark for dinner in town..my goodness the crowd in town was crazy! oya felt kinda tall in the crowd thanks to my heels!haha after that we mos to club..went with vic, joyce, kh and mark to club. it's my first time clubbin with kh and mark. it was pretty fun i must say though the drinks were kinda ex and the music sucked at times..joyce left at abt 3 plus while the rest of us left at 4am..by the time i got home it was abt 445..oya vic stayed over at my place..she slept within 10 mins..amazin rite?..haha i cldnt get to sleep till abt 6am..but didnt sleep properly cos i had stupid dreams..a damn disturbed sleep..in the end woke up at 11 plus n we went for lunch..rite now i'm kinda dyin from the lack of sleep n i haf sore throat from all the screamin :(..cant go nap now cos goin to my aunt's place later..wish me luck man :p pictures time!
chloe who wanted me to take a picture of her/cute little cookies

me with one of my fav person :)

my hot frens!

frens since crescent days..:)

initially i thought it was from my secret admirer..but it's from my sis. :xoya..MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

2006-12-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

hahah met up with cara todae! :) aniwae was pleasantly surprised that she came back from italy yesterdae..haha aniwae todae i bought a pair of green stripes heels(loves!) and Christmas cards.. Haha cant wait to shop more next week! WHEE. After tt met up with wq who was late..tsk tsk :P so the 3 of us went to the Singapore garden festival tog..those landscapes were quite crap..there were only 2 which were really nice..the rest were like EEE..den went to see orchids..pretty things I must say..but it got quite borin to see orchids n more orchids..partly cos I was hungry haha..den dinner-ed..walked arnd..n home sweet home.

my little monster chloe :)

2006-12-20T12:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmm been feeling uninspired :( ..been tryin to think of designs for my christmas cards but when I tried to make them..they turn out pretty ugly..okie at least not up to my expectations..it got me damn pissed off..so I guess for this year the christmas cards from me wont b a customized one..i rather buy something nice off the shelves than give something that's not nice.. :p aniwae for these few days been helping to babysit a little monster..haha my niece chloe..u noe what mayb I dun wana haf 4 kids in future anymore..lookin after a kid is like how energy consuming n challengin la..haha..been accompanyin her to watch cartoons and children videos, sing songs with her, draw stuff for her..hmmm I think I watch too much of those videos so much so that before I sleep, those songs were still ringing in my ears..freaky shit..haha..but she never fails to make me laugh..she imitatin my mum burpin was damn classic..haha
Oya yesterdae nite had a great conferencing session with vic n kh..it has been a while since I talked to kh..hopefully we can all go club this sat..haha sounds like fun man :p
Hmmm guess effort and time is really needed to make relationships of any sort work..I'm determined to keep the great frenships I haf now going because frens around me play a big and impt role in my life :)
n ya CARA can u come back from italy like now? Miss u babe :(

I dun like to b confused. Maybe i need a break and run away from this for a while.

2006-12-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

i got a pleasant surprise todae! weiqiang, thanks for the card! :)

i've been wonderin these days..so what happens after this?

2006-12-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

this is wad got me damn emo this mornin..thanks once again k:) LOVES!

phuture. me lookin sleepy n energetic sisi at the prata shop with the rest. in the still empty toilet(i looked like i had a tummy but in actual fact i had a flat one k:P). us while waitin for the music to come on and us w/o joyce who went outta the club. great nite with woohoo company! :)

2006-12-09T11:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was one of the worst days in my 19 years on earth.
Felt really alone in the waiting room. I ended up weeping silently. I felt pretty stupid to be cryin n be upset because the world still goes on with or without me and also I thought I was strong enough to handle it. Guess i just felt really insignificant, like if I really mattered to anyone at all shld anythin happen to me..sigh
Aniwae thanks for all the sms-es :)
i'm feeling beta..thanks pple!

2006-12-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

today seemed like a perfect day. almost. spent most of the day in bed with glasses of water to hydrate my alcohol-ridden body, thinkin abt the days to come and a book for company - the 5 people you meet in heaven.
aniwae just wana say that i'm really grateful for the frens arnd me who have always been there for me..showering me with much love care n concern..thanks alot..love ya all..:)

i'll be brave and get thru this. somehow.

2006-12-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

my bestie MEL. :)
aniwae so sorry that the hike todae is cancelled..we'll go soon k? ya n thanks for the prezzie! so cute la! lunch was great btw..help me thank ur mum eh? n i certainly hope that the lomo pics will turn out fine..yups..love ya babe!

n tt's me n phoebe in the christmasy mood!aniwae this few days have been pretty satisfyin i must say..town-ed 4 days in a row n bought nice stuff for myself woohoo!..aniwae to all who cares about me..thanks so much!:)it scares me to see that i had such a reaction to that matter. n i dont know what to do abt it.

2006-11-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

exams have finally ended..but i dun feel particularly happie or wad actually..so weird rite..i've been waitin for this day since dunno when and when it has finally arrived i dun have any feeling..hmmm aniwae i went to do my hair todae after my nm paper..permed it again n rebonded my fringe..i smell of the salon now:p..aniwae got losta stuff planned for the next few days..quite excitin! shoppin tannin tree-top trail clubbin cum stayover more shoppin! woohoo!
k shall go sleep soon..finally can haf a good nite sleep :)

2006-11-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

AH! exams are next week..so depressin:(
been goin back to sch lib to mug with ys for the whole of last week n for the next few days..pple have been sayin that it's easy to pass but difficult to score..hmmm i'm just worried..as in this is my 1st uni exam..haf no idea how izzit like..n there are also other stuff that are makin me worried n uptight..SIGH..n i've been eatin too much lately..i dun wana grow too fat!..haha :P
to all my dearies who are muggin hard now..haf sufficient rest..take care and hang on in there k? :)

gosh i really do need the courage sigh

2006-11-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking out rite now! i'm left with 2 weeks..SUCKS!

2006-11-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lu5k3oZnEgo
go watch it! damn cute n funnie hahaha

having known what lies infront
and not being able to do anything about it
my heart wept

2006-11-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

last soci tut session.. got back my midterm paper..i'm satisfied with my grade :)
aniwae yesterdae had dinner at made in china @ hua song museum which is located at haw par villa..it was to celebrate my dad's bdae..the food was quite good but the svc was only so-so for a supposedly fine-dining place..oya n one of these days i wana check out the 10 courts of hell at haw par villa..didnt haf a chance yesterdae..

is this all merely a habit?

2006-11-05T14:00:00.000+08:00

i think i'm bored but aniwae..
of the 7 wonders of the world..only 1 still exists till this day which is the great pyramid of giza.
now they are comin up with a new list of the 7 wonders..which u can vote for at this webby www.new7wonders.com

back to soci :(

2006-11-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Notre dame de paris was good :)!
I didnt noe how my aunt got those tics but she got the VVIP ones..which meant that we had the honour of walkin down the red carpet..my first time walkin down the red carpet can! hahah..ya there were cameras too..pple were dressed in gowns n tux..i just wanted to die there cos wad I was wearin didnt quite fit in..n the theme for the nite was black n my aunt didnt inform me abt it..so I happily turned up in white..how great..saw celebrities like zoe tay, chua en lai, bryan wong, quan yi feng..i was kinda star struck la..hahaha..aniwae the musical was good but it was quite tiring to hafta keep movin my eyes abt.. had to look at the stage and at the screens by the sides of the stage for english subtitles ..btw the whole musical was in French.. I was mesmerized by the way they sang of love- the rawness of love, a love that knew no boundaries, a love that kills, a love that betrays, a love laced with jealousy.. It stirred up much feelings that at times I find myself wantin to sing along with the characters wanting to pour out all the emotions within thru the songs. The night ended with supper at oasis with sweet potato porridge and fresh cockles, great company and the nightly smses from hk/china.

"I love with a love that destroys my world."

Phoebe: hahah mayb cos..actually I also dunno y I'm into arty stuff now :P..aniwae..YES i'm so looking forward to watchin phantom next year! I hope I can find someone to sponsor my ticket man..:P and u had buffet after EL lect?..saw hairy not? Haha:X

2006-11-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

i'm quite excited abt tonite..cos i'll be goin with my aunt to watch notre-dame de paris at the indoor stadium!YEA :)

Modern Times

2006-11-01T00:28:00.000+08:00


Modern Times, Filmed in 1936. Directed, Written and acted by Charles Chaplin.

watched this show todae after it was mentioned durin my nm lect..hahah quite hilarious!go watch ya!hmm seems like the link cant work..aniwae can google it..under the videos category..

And I don't want to be here if you're gonna be there
Was that supposed to happen?

2006-10-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

pictures time! developed my 5th roll of film yesterdae..hmm i'm disappointed with the results..cos many of the pics werent captured..they were either underexposed or overexposed..damn wasted..sigh..those tt were taken durin the biennale and when i went out with stella n mark were mostly underexposed..luckily i used my camera phone to take pics..otherwise i'll b really mad..looks like my lomography skill isnt improvin..damn!

yesterdae :)

stella & i laughin i think/me monkey stella & mark

this is yiling suspended in mid-air :P

the birthday girl enjoyin her bdae cake alot/tongues!(i had straighter hair den ha)

2006-10-30T12:36:00.000+08:00

i guess it's gona b kinda quiet for the next few days..

2006-10-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, the madness is over..for now la..this week had to rush deadlines for econs assignment and presentation n study for the eng test..aniwae eng test SUCK BIG TIME.. rite phoebe?..sigh..i think I'm so gona flunk this test la..all my mugging have gone down the drain..o wells..
Aniwae today feels kinda weird in a good way..haha dun ask me y..hmmm mayb cos for now all those urgent stuff are cleared n suddenly my life becomes less cluttered(?) again..the transition from chiong-in to being relaxed I guess..
N I'll b visitin an Indian temple tomolo for my soci tut..finally I haf the chance to visit one..pretty excited abt it..but gota wake up at 815am..tt I'm aint tt excited..
K la I'll end here for now..i dunno wad else to say..guess it has been a while tt I stopped being really open abt stuff here..
Ciao!

2006-10-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

taggies reply

ys:
hahah first time u tag SO MANY TIMES la hahah..guess u must be missin me loads tt's y :P..nvm b patient u'll b seein me in 2 days time!!..n okie i'll try my best to cut down on my spendin n save up..den can go travel tog..so exciting! ;)

mak:
eh wad's the bright girls' success abt?..sound so ERM..haha..watch princess hours! confirm hook onto it one..like me "-__-

dave:
u said u'll b taggin..so i'll reply in advance..hahah..my reply.."you tagged!"

n i've been feelin a little disturbed this few days..HMMM

2006-10-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

omg! youtube is like how addictive la! :x on thurs n fri nite..i was like youtubin till 4am and 545am respectively hahah..i was watchin princess hrs..and gosh the lead actor is like how charmin:)..i think tt all drama serials or any movie shld haf a happy endin always because in reality we are already faced with so much pain n unhappiness..so at least while watchin those shows we can for a while live in a make-believe world that everythin is perfect..haha wad an escapist rite :p..rite now i'm on to watchin the L word which cara recommended me to..it's abt lesbianism..hmmm..

hmmm ydae iwas tellin cara tt my life lately..has been strangely normal and stagnant..no more rollercoaster of emotions..okie mayb sumtimes i do feel kinda stressed up by projects n tests and grouchiness arisin from pms and a lack of sleep and how i feel disappointed when i didnt shop enuff..hahah but u get wad i mean rite..no major like stuff happenin..okie shit i think i beta dun say so early*touch wood*..haha..yea guess this sort of life is more healthy for my mental and emotional well-being..yups..i hope things stay this way for now..

okie back to my youtube! :p

2006-10-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

overdosing on hope?

2006-10-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm it's kinda hazy out there isnt it? Even my livin room is hazy la..madness!
Aniwae todae was kinda bizarre..i kinda saw a fresh dead body n saw my eyecandy 3 times!
okie abt the dead body..it was 720am and I was like kinda sleep-walkin to my bus-stop to go sch..den suddenly I heard this damn loud bang sound..den I was thinking to myself..those crow shooters were really early todae..n I was expectin all the birds to b flyin away..but all all I saw was that 2 aunties lookin kinda stunned n traumatized..den i walked closer n I saw a body lyin at the foot of the flat..i didnt noe wad to do..called my mum abt it..along my way to sch..i was like feelin cold n trembling a little..it's the first time that such a thing happened within such close proximity to me.. :/
N I freakin saw my eyecandy like 3 times?!?!!..gosh I think he must be thinking tt i'm stalkin him la if he did see me todae..first is in lect..2nd at the deck..den 3rd at the lib sitting a few tables away from me facin me..i wanted to just die there..i think I dun wana see him anymore:p
N I bought the num bag ready!! :)

2006-10-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

feeling kinda blue todae :(
it's like everythin that i say or do todae seems wrong.
S I G H

2006-10-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

we biennale-d on children's day! :) [we love art!]

finally an update!:P biennale was actually quite fun!!..went to all 4 sites(cityhall, tanglin camp, national museum & sam)..but i thought the art installations and works at cityhall n tanglin camp were more interestin..n quite a number of the works had the tag "parental guidance" which made me hesitate to view them cos i'm scared i wld b haunted by the images..hahah okie yes i'm timid :p..but i got a damn small heart so cannot subject my heart to shockin stuff haha..had fun tryin to guess what were the meanings of some of the works..but some simply dun make sense la..but it was quite an eye-opener..n i didnt noe lookin at art cld take up so much time..we biennale-d from 1030am-530pm..damn long rite..we were both damn tired after tt..n my toes were hurtin alot cos i wore the wrong shoes :(..aniwae yiling thanks for biennaling with me! :)

after tt met up with mark for dinner(crayfish pasta at spageddies YUM), present shoppin n last but not least ben&jerry's..wad a fruitful sunday!

n ya there are more pics but they are still in my lomocam..n yiling felt malu havin to take pic with my lomocam..n mark thinks tt the shape of it is obscene.."-__-..

i still love my lomocam!:)

2006-09-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

todae was project day..stayed in sch from 10am - 445pm..it's even longer than my usual sch days..but at least both my project grps have nice pple..so it was fine =)..aniwae the thing i wana blog abt is forbidden city: portrait of an empress!! my generous bro treated my whole family to it! n wad's more he got us the front few seats! WOOHOO! haha. it was quite good i must say..it's abt how this artist(kate) from the west was invited to China to help the empress draw her portrait(the above 2 pics which i took b4 the start of it)..in this tale there's betrayal and this sense of frustration of not being understood..how man will manipulate others and forsake love for money..how sumtimes it's difficult to stand up for the truth cos u r outnumbered..how man are easily conditioned and influenced..this play left me feelin a little sad..sigh.
ya the pics below..took them while waitin for my parents to dress up..haha nice pics rite =p

2006-09-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

todae i was supposed to go to singapore biennale and church svc with yiling..i even noted down the timings for the shuttle bus and tours for the singapore biennale n have also decided wad tourist-cy stuff i'm gona bring ie. my ah ma fan n lomocam..but my thing had to come todae mornin..so in the end i had to pangseh her(sorrie babe!) and spend most of the day curled up like a cooked prawn in bed and whinin to everyone how bad my cramps were..it was so bad tt i cldnt even stand up straight..poor me seriously =(..at night when my cramps finally got beta..i went out with my parents sis-in-law n little chloe for dinner n to see the lightings at little india n eunos..the lightings were okie not tt great actually =X..aniwae the mid-term break is finally here! =)..i'm gona make sure i rest properly..i dun wana b feeling tired n drained for the rest of the sem..so i declare tomolo a tv cum piggin-out cum nap-whenever-i-want day!
n ya wanted to show u guys my cactus tt flowers! amazing rite..it has flowered a number of times ready..so cool rite hahah..this time round it has 3 flowers..very nice i must say..but they wilt very quickly..only last for a day..good stuff dun last huh..

2006-09-20T16:30:00.000+08:00

i havent been bloggin..oops..anyway...

last tue i went to my salon intending to colour my hair.. but tony suggested that i shld perm my hair since i'm pretty troubled over my natural curls..and esp since my hair is at tt kind of irritating length so it tends to curl even more..so i gave the green light..so the top 2 pics are the ones from a jap magazine and it shows how my hair will turn out eventually..the bottom left one is me lookin ridiculous with the curlers on my head..oya the girl who was helpin me do my hair is only a year older than me..quite surprising huh..n she's really nice to me..but after the perm..i was depressed cos i wasnt very used to my hair..i wanted to cry la..so loser rite hahah..i cabbed home =X..anywae the 4th pic is me with my newly permed hair..it's not too bad rite actually..=p..yesterdae i went back to the salon to haf my hair coloured..everyone arnd me dun understand y i dun mind spendin so much on my hair..hahah beats me too..i guess i just love my hair a little too much..=X..oya the curls now are much looser..

this is the 1st time i'm postin pics of me n sj..haha..it was taken last last sun at suntec..

aniwae been feeling very tired these few days..i'm so glad that the mid-term break is next week..i'm so lookin forward to goin to biennale with yiling on sat(YEA finally!)..cant wait to be a tourist!..n also i'll b watchin forbidden city with my family on tues night!..n spendin quality time with my babes..hopefully on weds? n with bestie on fri(i think?rite?)..but so not lookin forward to doin projects..=(..
n ya i like readin certain blogs..cos they make me live their life for a while and experience things that i've always wanted to experience but for some reason i cldnt..okie tt was kinda random..
havin 2 tests on fri..eng n livin with maths..wish me luck! o ya forget to boast abt sumthin..i scored 98/100 for my malay test! saya pandai!(i am clever!) cara..awak pandai juga!

2006-09-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

i painted my toe nails in the shade of red that i like very much..check it out the next time u see me ya haha..n i really wana go n check out singapore biennale!!..anyone?

y am i always at the receiving end of bad stuff
wont you give me sumthin nice?

2006-09-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

2006-09-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

AHH! i'm pissed off i cant seem to post up pics..dunno wad's wrong with photobucket man..:(..now i dun haf the mood to blog ready..argh

2006-08-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

so here's g o o d b y e to you.
mayb cos it doesnt matter as much as in the past, tt's y i dun feel particularly sad or anythin..just feelin a little too-bad-tt-thngs-has-to come-to-such-an-end kinda feelin. i rather b cold and harsh than to subject myself to sumthin tt nv fails to bring me unhappiness.

aniwae i realised i havent been doin much in depth updatin of my life lately oops =X..been busy with sch n stuff..tryin to adapt to such an independent style of learnin..meetin new pple almost everyday which is sumthin i'm not quite used to..tryin to board the bus with my slippers properly on=p..readings n more readings..k think i'll update more the next time..feelin lazy now =p..tas everyone!

2006-08-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

it's times like this that i wish my heart stopped beating.
with each beat, the pain intensifies..

2006-08-19T02:15:00.000+08:00

BOOOHOOOHOOO! :( i think i cannot make it to the next round of selection for floorball.....

2006-08-14T18:56:00.000+08:00

bsp1005 1400-1600 lt17..my very first lect..it was pretty scary i must say to go for lect alone in an unfamiliar fac..but luckily i met desiree on the way to sch so she accompanied me to biz fac..thank goodness! being in tt lect place made me feel pretty uneasy..i really didnt noe a single soul there..so i sat there alone payin attention to the lecturer who's a korean..aniwae the lect kinda ended early cos he realised there wasnt enuff time to finish the next part of the lect..so i made my way home..but guess wad i got lost..damn scared la can..but i just anyhow hop onto the internal shuttle n finally managed to reach my stop..i feel a little more brave todae =)..
but anyhow these few days i've been feelin nervous, scared, i-wana-run-away-from-this-sch-reopenin-shit feeling, depressed..uni is like..so freakin independent..it's like my education progress is now in my hands..and if i shld screw up i cannot blame on anyone but myself..gosh! it's like i gota get use to enjoyin my own company and being more responsible for myself..n hope that the frens i meet and make along the way will b nice pple..n i shld learn to b less shy..cos when i'm shy pple thinks i'm dao..i've got nothin to say..okie i cant wait for weds to come since it is my free day =)

2006-07-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

i haf photos to b uploaded here but i'm kinda lazy =p

aniwae todae was matriculation and cca sign up..hmmm let's just say that it didnt get me excited abt sch..okie tt's besides the fact tt fass has losta eyecandies..but yea..i still wana b a bummer! i dun wan sch to reopen! =(..

2006-07-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

todae went rock climbin with cara, ys, ys's fren n ys's fren fren haha. man i can feel the ache in my arms n legs now haha =p after that went all the way to jurong east for dinner n bubble tea!

i look pro climbin the wall rite haha but tt particular wall was like jinxed..i lost my balance and banged into the wall thrice..how nice..

my nice frens didnt tell me tt i looked ridiculous until i asked cara to take a pic of me "-_-.. n tt's cara all excited n geared up to rock climb..

rock climbin shoes and us!

22/7/2006.

chloe with her pink balloon..n tt's my sis-in-law..we were all in town doin a little shoppin..=p

21/7/2006.

remnants of the chilli crab we had..had drunken prawns n fried man tou..damn good la! den melvin drove ys n me to buy tau huay to eat..YUM

20/7/2006.

us at car's hse after gymin n tannin..

the ah pek who peeped at cass..hahah

i was bored so i took these..

n my cute toes! haha

our unsuccessful attempt at squash..

the squash wannabes..haha

cass playin squash taken by cara..

here ends my summary of the past few days..ciao!

2006-07-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

i went for the nus medical checkup with cass todae morning. the doc said that i may haf a defective heart valve..gosh really didnt expect that from the doc. may go for cardio-checkup soon =(

A defective heart valve is one that fails to fully open or close.
-A stenotic heart valve can't open completely, so blood is pumped through a smaller-than-normal opening.
-A valve also may not be able to close completely. This leads to regurgitation (blood leaking back through the valve when it should be closed).

2006-07-17T01:36:00.000+08:00

wq, my dog and my shoes..thanks for dinner ya!=)

thought the above 2 pics were pretty artistic haha..anywae lunch at tony roma with my siblings, sis-in-law and chloe =)

1 of the 12 sucker fish that my bro owns! very exotic lookin rite and this particular one is damn big la..a pity tt the one that i like was hidin behind the branches..

i'm the proud owner of the dolce&gabbana's golden edition of the motorola v3i..if only ah..SIGH..it belongs to my sis and my sis-in-law got it too..i'm so in love with it! so chio! but doubt i'll get it..shall save up my money on other things and be contented with my maroon v3i =(..and ya i'm damn happie for my sis..she has a new job, a guy in her life and a damn chio hp! cant wait to see the guy whom my sis is so in love with..exciting!

2006-07-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

bmt day with my more retarded fren yiling. =P 2 of us lookin like happy kids(dun think i looked tt happie actually) with our desserts. mine ice kachang hers bO bO chA chA haha..i hope my arm dun ache tomolo =X

2006-07-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. "

2006-07-11T00:42:00.000+08:00

i realised that it's easy to erase someone from my life if i really wanted to.
it's a case of an overdue goodbye.

2006-07-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm finally feelin more awake..this morning woke up at 730(!!!) to accompany my mum to nuh for her checkup..she was pretty nervous abt it so guess the least i cld do was to give her moral support by just being there..came home at abt lunch time den slept n slept..didnt noe that i was tt tired but had a damn good nap I must say cos it was dreamless haha..been sleepy since I came back from the stayover at vic's hse..aniwae clubbin on sat was fun !! music drinks pple were great and it was really comfortable dancing in sch uni n sneakers haha but not many turned up in sch uni even though it was supposed to b a uniform party..o well..n saw losta familiar faces there too..off now..n ya below shows wad happens when u put 3 girls tog plus a camera..there were more pics actually but too lazy to blog everythin..=p

2006-07-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

here are the pics from my 4th row of film! a little disappointed cos they didnt develop it with a white border arnd my pics..but at least the guy was nice enuff to give me tips on usin my lomo cam and gave me a 35cents discount haha and i'm quite sad tt many of the pics were underexposed =(..i still needa brush up on my lomo skills..anywae enjoy some of my fav shots here though i think my scanner didnt do justice to the pics..those with the dates are from vic's cam..

haha this makes me laugh cos it's the expression she gives me everytime i wana take a pic of her

kh & bell!

me & vic!
thought that the 2 pics above looked like we were cut and pasted onto a fake background rite?

seafood platter for 2..yum..who can resist? =p

our food..

kh the white dot on ur nose was unintentional..my scanner sumthin wrong =X..but i love the blurry effect here..

tsk tsk nv look at the cam..haha

3 pufferfish at fish&co ha!

2006-07-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

a meet-up session with dear frens. a wave from a stranger motorist on the street. a sms from a good fren of mine. fav buns to fill my hungry stomach. a possible meet-up with my 1st 3 mths classmate. the little things that warms my heart. =) aniwae i realised that i can upload the pics from my hp onto my com..shld haf realised it earlier..wld haf saved me losta trouble..so guess i'll b pic-bloggin quite a bit next time..n cant wait to develop my 4th row of film!

a lovely nite spent with hsbc frens =)

2006-07-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

i realise the pic on my blogskin doesnt show anymore so i've decided to change blogskin once again. and for the lack of entries..let's just say it's really difficult to put my thoughts to words these days..

2006-06-17T13:20:00.000+08:00

went to sign up for malay classes just now with cara..cant wait for it to start..hahah..at least now i've got somethin else to occupy me..anywae here's some pics (courtesy of joyce) taken the last time we went clubbin at zouk..

joyce vic me sisi!

joyce and me!

2006-06-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

monday was a good day cos i had quality rottin time at home.

tuesday had lunch with yiling and silin den met up with yvonne to walk walk.

todae was spent at sentosa doin wad we do best..tan!den went back to my hse to bathe before headin down to chinatown to try to get my lomo fixed..my lomo kinda died on me =(..but in the end we went to the wrong place..so had to go down to bugis..the person said that she had nv encountered such a lomo like mine..but she was nice cos she changed a brand new lomo for me! i promise to treasure it n take beta care of it =X..den ys left..so it's me n cara n we went wanderin in town..oya i developed my 3rd roll of film..n i'm kinda upset cos some of the pics didnt appear n those r the more impt pics..sigh..n the pics arent as nice..gosh i really needa brush up on my lomography skills..i'm startin on my 4th one..hopefully it will turn out beta..hmm in case u r wonderin how come i sound so bored in this entry..it's not on purpose ya..it's just that i'm really sleepy rite now..all 3 of us were like quite sleepy n tired after tannin..dunno y..but i had a good time cos i had great company minus the part where they kept bangin into my boobs intentionally and ~~unintentionally~~ "-_- haha..thanks for today n accompanyin me to repair my lomo =) here's the pics for todae..btw this 2 pics were damn super ex..cheat our money..they were taken by the sentosa staff..

i haf such kissable cheeks! haha

2006-06-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

The nite before I stayed up till abt 3am to make the cards..today's finally the day I quit my job..hmmm the whole day I only did sms loadin and continued to make my cards..haha it's like I'm being paid 6 bucks per hr to do my farewell cards..haha..nor treated me n yiling to lunch at Manhattan..the food there's like fish and co..nothin that great actually except the videos abt fishes that caught my attention..haha..ya later in the day I accompanied nor to deliver pins to the cust..returned to office after 6pm..n I had my farewell..they got me 50 dollars worth of topshop vch n a card =)..took photos with my collegues and frens..gona develop them soon n will post them up!..just when I was abt to leave the office to meet yiling..i felt damn sad..yes yes I was quite excited to quit and hurry live a bummer's life..but the realization that todae's indeed my last day as a temp at hsbc n tt I wont b seein the hsbc pple anymore..saddens me =( ..SIGH..aniwae went to meet yiling and headed down to great world for dinner n walked arnd n headed to her home to borrow books from her..n ya thanks for listenin n the talk ya? =)..hmmm rite now I just needa hibernate and den I’ll b ready to lead a bummer's life..haha

2006-06-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

I was angry. I seriously felt like making a voodoo doll of you n poke u all over with needles n more needles. I felt like punchin your adam apple since kickin your balls will require quite a bit of accuracy which I may b lackin at times. I guess it's only natural that you bring out all the violent tendencies in me after all the stuff u've done. sigh. now i'm just saddened by this thing.. it's really the time to put an end to this. the followin will sound familiar but trust me it will b the last time hearin this from me..I dun wana hear your explanations or ur fav lecture abt me always believing hear-says n refusing to believe you. when everyone tells me the same things abt you i dun think they are hear-says anymore. n after hearin wad they said..everythin fell into place n made perfect sense..but aniwae I did choose to believe you n but wad did I get in return? Lies, u betrayin my trust n u goin arnd telling pple nonsense. it's just my luck to have known you n allowed you to manipulate me..i was just part of your act all these while..years mayb? I hope one day I'll be able to forgive you n tt i'll nv see you again.

2006-06-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

oya my tortoise laid an egg todae! n my parents assisted in her labour..so cute..it's a pity i wasnt there to witness it..the egg's now buried in the sand..hopefully after 60 days there will b a baby tortoise..i'm excited!

2006-06-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

It's a case of misplaced love.

It has really been a long time. wonder who comes here still..yups I haf one happie news..my last day of work is next fri! I'm so tired of workin..yea the money's not bad n I like the idea of not askin my parents for money to spend..(damn my mood went downhill just a while ago cos there's this stranger stayin at my hse for 2 days..damn)..aniwae ya I was sayin..there's so much hypocrisy n politics in office..i feel tainted there. Luckily there are nice pple arnd to talk to me and punch *ahem yiling*..haha..n i think I'm not patient enuff..i cant b a teacher..i really wana scream n strangle the person whom I'm teachin to do my stuff..sigh another career option gone..counting down the days to next fri..but I'm faced with another problem..wad sort of farewell gift shld I make or get..oya been colour splashin a bit these days since I got my lomo not too long ago..haha here are some of the nicer pics..my first 2 rolls of film were a bit disastrous hopefully my 3^rdone will b beta..

my monkey face chloe

her smile nv fails to melt my heart n ya i love this pic lots cos it has the ageing effect..

ATM

my fav shot..like the blurry effect..

puffer me n jocelyn

my 2 pretty yellow dearies

yours truly

2006-04-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

i've always been broken.

2006-04-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

i wonder wad's his purpose for u to b in my life..

Hmmm actually there were a lot of stuff that happened last week but guess I was too lazy n tired to blog about them cos been ot-ing every single day..damn shagged =( but kinda regret not bloggin abt them cos writing abt the incident then is different from writing it now..the feelings and the moods are just different ready..aniwae took leave todae cos I went for the test n interview for communication studies at ntu..it was okie I guess but rite now I'm just crossin my fingers..hopin that I'll be able to get tt course..hmmm..cant believe I gota go work tomolo..sian..cant wait for fri n the weekend to come..den can meet up with seraphine n jocelyn again! =)..n ya I love my nails rite now..my nice french manicure..hope tt didnt sound too bimbotic..haha

2006-04-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

my first attempt at photoshop! me n my aunt at her baptism =)

reply to taggies..

bell: i got the cd on thurs i think n look wad i've done with it already haha..but are u familiar with photoshop? if u r den can ask u some stuff..thanks ya? =)

vidZ: hey girl! didnt noe u read my blog haha..yea i so totally agree tt u r the only person who calls me sm..tt reminds me of me always singin to u in class..=p..bet u miss my singin..haha

wei: i just said gd nite to u on msn..haha..haf a good rest n sweet dreams of me haha =p

2006-04-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

I just had the most satisfying dinner with ys at adam road food centre =). We ate sambal stingray kangkong prawn noodles and ice-kachang. Both of us were pretty shocked by the amt we ate. Haha but it was good. but I thought the place was a bit dirty cos there was this medium-sized cockroach which kinda rested beside my thigh. Damn it. stupid cockroach. Yucks. Aniwae yesterdae was seraphine's last day =( n mon will b jocelyn's last day too..work's getting sian without fun n nice pple arnd me..yiling dun leave anytime soon ah if not I'll b really lonely sigh..ya aniwae after work yesterdae me seraphine jocelyn n the new temp derance(I think tt's the spellin) went to marina south 4 dinner..finally i satisfy my cravin 4 tt sort of steamboat haha. k la think I'll go sleep ready..tomolo I think I gota wake up at like 645? Cos will b goin to the zoo with my family..kinda excited actually cos I havent been to the zoo 4 like years..zoo here I come! oya oya forgot to say that i just coloured my hair on wed..it looks kinda blackish but brown under the light..the colour's a bit darker than wad i had expected but i kinda like it actually..look more demure (quoting from yiling) haha..k nitesy!

2006-04-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

i saw james lye at taka todae!
one word: yum!

2006-04-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Todae's lunch was a little rush..a little unusual but it was no doubt the best. Wad a lovely surprise it was..Earthquake at swensens! Really really appreciate it..Thanks =). U guys rock!

2006-04-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae met up wif ms kate for dinner, did a little shoppin n did quite a bit of catchin up too. hope to be able to meet up wif her more often though. N ya yesterdae my colleagues n frens celebrated my bdae at work. They got me this very cute card, cake and a topshop giftcard. I'm so thrilled cos I'll b able to get the polka dotted shoes!! N todae cara n ys came to my hse in the morning. n they really gave me a lovely n pleasant surprise. love the flowers, the bikini n the ever so fabulous card made by cara. Thanks!!=) *a big hug n a wet kiss to the both of u* We were supposed to go tannin n do other things but cos I havent quite recovered so we decided to just hang arnd. Town-ed and had lunch at dome. After tt walked arnd summore b4 headin down to crescent funfair. Saw mel and many other familiar faces..i miss crescent =(. Aniwae met up with cara's cell den they gota go church. I decided to head home cos my body was like radiating losta heat..quite scary =/..but aniwae came home n slept..felt beta but my throat still sucks. After tt went to haf steamboat at suntec..my dad's treat!..got 2 angpaos from my parents n my aunt too..guess it wld have been more fun if I werent sick but I still think this bdae is the nicest I ever had..it's unlike my past bdaes which i shant go into details. yups thanks for all the bdae wishes n the lovely presents that I have received or yet to receive (am I thick skin or wad =p) haha. i'm rite now one happy girl with a bad sore throat! =) nites everyone!

2006-04-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

Wad happened? Or did anything happened in the first place?

I'm sick. It has been quite some time since I fell ill. Damn, my immune system failed me. yesterdae my throat felt something wrong n my head was damn heavy, like will drop to the floor anytime kind. aniwae it got worse towards the end of the day. By the time I met wq for dinner, I was half dead. He treated me to dinner at hans n got me a polka dottish scrapbook. Many thanks ya =). Aniwae met my parents n sis at hans, quite a funnie thing tt happened. Cos my mum like wana spy on us cos i'm damn sure tt she thought tt wq was my bf. Aniwae met them again on the way home n we went home tog. This morning i decided to not go work, heart achin..no work no money. sigh. so yea my voice now sounds weird, thought tt the other time when my voice was sumthin wrong, it at least sounded sexy, not like this time. sigh. n my headache comes n goes anytime it likes. Sick. My mum wants me to see the doc but I dun want. Cos I feel that if I were to go to the clinic i'll b infected wif more illnesses cos of the different sorts of patients at the clinic. The clinic is like the meetin place for the germs n viruses. My mum thinks tt my theory is nonsensical.

*edit
i just received my 2nd bdae wish from kh =)..the first was from wq..both of them enlistin tomolo. hope army life will b okie 4 them. take care ya the both of u? aniwae my fever is 38 degrees now..feelin damn hot n everythin's kinda spinnin..k will go sleep now..nite world..n i wana get the blue polka dot shoes from topshop. zzz

2006-04-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Feelin a little empty nowadays cos everythin seem to come to a standstill..so stagnant so boring. nothing seems to b able to fill the void in me. Nothing much to look forward to these days. sigh. I need changes, sumthin exciting n refreshin to happen..like rite now? aniwae I think I'm not a very nice person at times. just a thought abt myself but u can always prove my argument wrong. anyone? =p

2006-04-01T14:46:00.000+08:00

I've been meetin many new pple recently. It's nice in the sense that i can make more frens n the process of getting to noe the person discoverin things abt each other can b quite fun but I get very paranoid n sumtimes hypocritical. Cos i'm always worried that I may say the wrong stuff n offend or upset the other party. Sumtimes I feel constipated cos I cant say the stuff or do the things I want. So now I really am more appreciative of the times spent with old frens, I can b bimbotic, silly, crazy, throw my face infront of them, say the dumbest thing, just being able to do anything n everything, just being able to be myself n I noe they wldnt judge me. thank u my dearies! U noe who u are *winks* haha.

Aniwae went to phuture with joyce, elaine, baoting, des n his frens yesterdae. great music I must say! n it was my first time tryin tiger beer=X. It was fun dancing to good music with good company, n luckily they kept lookin out for me, was like super oblivious to my surroundings (izzit cos of the alcohol?) but it was a pity that joyce left first. No hangover =). Woke up this morning, with the buzzin sound still in my ears n feelin a little detached from reality. I realize I always feel that way after clubbin. Weird but o well..

N yes I love my layout too! haha